Here We Are, Aging Together, Just Like We Said We Would

For your birthday, we pretend 
prehistoric. I fill our apartment

with inflatable dinosaurs, scaly ice 
cream cake, and raw meat. 

You have always wanted 
a birthday just like this: carbon 

dated back 
to before humans 

decided to chew 
all sorts of things. We play pretend 

so well you can barely smell the plastic, 
or remember anything about outside

and the blood moon that hangs there, 
red and wanting 

to become 
a whole new animal in your eyes.

Time is passing. We can feel the second 
hand, gently carving 

new trails along our skin. 
I recently eroded the landscape 

of my body 
by choice, and you

drew a fresh map,
topographical and understanding.

My blood was outside
my body and you kept 

the carnivores at bay. 
This is what we’ve promised 

one another, to try and live
and live and live 

until the earth caves in. 
We have built a home

and the ceiling is so high
everything feels about to echo—

all the things we say
growing older, and quieter, and 

drifting further away. 

 
Kayleb Rae Candrilli

Kayleb Rae Candrilli is a 2019 Whiting Award Winner in Poetry and the author of Water I Won’t Touch, Copper Canyon Press 2021, All the Gay Saints, Saturnalia 2020, and What Runs Over, YesYes Books 2017. Their work is published or forthcoming in POETRY, American Poetry Review, Boston Review and many others. They live in Philadelphia with their partner.

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