Public Domain

You catalog by hand, playing librarian in your dead
mother’s house. Try to justify archiving each item:

A balanced checkbook. Mothballs. Life Savers
mints. Back copies of the New York Times.

Frozen chicken pot pies. The Yellow Pages.
Lorna Doone cookies long expired. Pantyhose.

A pair of Daniel Green slippers from
Lord & Taylor. Flat Canada Dry ginger ale. 

                                      ---

You find a little girl hiding in Mr. Rogers’ mustard
sweater, sew on and sew forth, threading needles

with pubic hairs discovered in the carpet. Surreal
smells. The Pine-Sol dying down in the bathroom.

Which was your father’s bad ear? The one that lost
most of its hearing in the war. There is life in the eyes

unspoken. Your very pulse a secret algorithm, a soft-
ware designed to track your browsing history. 

                                      ---

An open casket on view for the whole church to see.
Her genetic code made available for live streaming.

You copyright the notes in the margins of her bible.
The intellectual property preserved. Shaky cursive

her signature trademark. Upon the fall of a domestic
sphere, a pocketbook is emptied of all its valuables.

To become takes a long time. Blue spells are periods of
red where you pause, the body calculating the losses. 

 
Alison C. Rollins

Alison C. Rollins, born and raised in St. Louis city, currently works as the Librarian for Nerinx Hall. She is the second prizewinner of the 2016 James H. Nash Poetry contest and a finalist for the 2016 Jeffrey E. Smith Editors’ Prize. Her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in American Poetry Review, Hayden’s Ferry Review, Missouri Review, Poetry, The Poetry Review, River Styx, Solstice, TriQuarterly, Tupelo Quarterly, Vinyl, and elsewhere. A Cave Canem Fellow, she is also a 2016 recipient of the Poetry Foundation’s Ruth Lilly and Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Fellowship. 

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